23

Yesterday was my 23rd birthday..........
I think back to when I was in Junior high and even high school, I dreamed of getting married in May when I was 23. Well may is 6 months away......I am no where near a wedding. I am okay with that because I am not sure I am ready to be married! However I would love to have that magical feeling girls get when they are with someone they love. I know what you all are going to say, it will happen for you, just wait for it. Of course I know all those things. I REALLY HOPE IT WILL HAPPEN FOR ME!!!!!!! I know I need to be come comfortable with myself in order to let someone in, but I honestly feel like I need that person in my life in order to be 100% sure.
I feel like I am not good enough to be with someone. I know it may sound stupid bu I feel like I am not worth it, like for some reason I do not deserve to be in love.....DAMN I do deserve, I try to be a pretty good person, I don't think I am too terrible looking......who knows.....hopefully someday.

thanks for listening