The longest week of my life!

Well it has been a week and 2 days since I moved back home. It still feels like I am on break and that i will be traveling back to richmond in a couple of weeks, but i know deep down that I won't, that makes me very sad. Anyways I wanted to update everyone on my holiday adventures!!!!!!





Matt's Christmas- was fun, we did our usual traditions. It was really weird though becuase it wasn't really Christmas eve my cousins both had their girl friends there, turning our 5 grandchildren into 9. this also made me feel bad becuase I was the only one with out a SO there. Oh well I am starting to get use to being single and being around couples..... someday.... Anyways it went well, really wasn't exciting or anything I did however recieve the movie BABY MAMA, Bitch I don't know your life! lol I can now watch it as much as I want and whenever I want.





christmas eve- well this was a hard day for me. I spent the day home with a sick dad and helping my mom getting ready for the wedding stuff. then instead of going to church (this is my favorite day to go to church) we went to visit with my gradma...that was nice, lots of tears were shed by all. My dad didn't go with us because he was sick. then we wnet to my nana nad papaws for teh rest of christmas eve. I didn't get anything exciting, a lot of children's books. Which is awesome becuase I need to build up my library. It was hard because my family of 5 turned into a family of 2. Also hard becuase my cousins were all talking about how they hated that we changed things this year. They want to do everything new years eve and if you can't make it then sorry. I looked at them with tears in my eyes and said. As a member of the family who went from 5 to 2 tonight I am thankful that we had it yesterday. This is the hardest Christmas and it hurts to listen to you guys complain. (I think they got my point).





Christmas day- I had decided I was going to have a good attitude about this day because I knew it was going to be hard. I woke spent the morning talking with my parents, then around 2 matt and kelli came home and we had christmas. once again nothing to exciting i got a DVD player and a pearl necklace. After we did that gern and todd and leah came over and we had christmas with them. I got some new shoes....wohoo.





As far as christmas' go this one was not very exciting





December 26th-rehersal!! This went well and was fun. I loved it because I was the only bridesmaid who knew the guys so they gave me a lot of attention, which everyone knows I love!!! lol I also made myself drink wine. The bar was only wine and beer, so I did it. I actually kind of liked it and I think if I contiue making myself drink it I will even enjoy it, which would make my life easier because wine is a lot less expensive then my other drinks. well except smironoff lol anyways. the rehersal was fun and got be excited for the wedding. I didn't really cry this day, which was agreat change from the previous days.





Oh I forgot, I got to spend all day with my brother!!! we went out to lunch and then shopping to find him good deals on Christmas decorations. it was AWESOME!!!!!!!! we had a lot of fun!!!!





Wedding day arrived. When I woke up I got very excited. My mom and I headed over to the hair place at 8, I loved my hair it was sooo pretty. Then I got my nails done and then we went to macy's to get make up. I will admit i have never felt so pretty in my whole life. for once I wanted people to look at me! lol
Once I put on my dress I felt so pretty, The wedding was beautiful and the reception was blast, I danced allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll night it was wonderful. I have to admit it was also fun being the sister of the groom becuase I new over half the people there!!! It was awesome we got to see a lot of people that we hadn't see in a really long time!!!!! wohoo!!okay i tired of writting on her eI will write more later.....

Basically all you need to know is I am happy, and had a wonderful couple of days. I hope you guys had a great christmas!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

The 7 days of change

Well as you know my life has just gone through a change. I graduated from College on Saturday. This is a happy time. It ends a chapter of my life. It is also sad, because with that chapter ending so do some relationships and also some of my identity changes. So far in this new chapter it seems like the old. I am home for Christmas and have all of my stuff in boxes. Except I can since that on the next page it shows all the major changes. I am now no closer than 2 hours away from most of my best friends, I am living back in my parents house, I am unemployed and come January first I take over all my bills. Lucky for me I have wonderful parents who are going to continue to pay for my health insurance, car insurance, cell phone, and any other expense that may arrive until I am able to find a job. So I realized all these changes on Sunday. Which I spent most of the morning searching for Jobs and paperwork in order to get everything set up....ALL I WANT TO DO IS TEACH, but it is looking like I have lots of hoops to jump through first.... On top of my personal life changes there are changes in my family. My grandma (Gern) had been in the hospital and just yesterday got out. She is now living in a rehab clinic. This has added stress to my mom ( who I haven't really seen since I have been home) I mean I love my dad and I enjoy spending time with him, but I miss my mom. I also miss my brother. He has been working. or doing wedding stuff or at his own house ever since I have been home. Last night we went on our light night but the conversations were taken up by wedding day plans. Which is fine, I am excited for the wedding, but I would for once like to feel like it is CHRISTMAS and not just the week of the wedding. Tonight brings some major changes in my holiday plans.........
December 23rd- Matt's Christmas, we will be having our Christmas eve tonight. However the only gifts given will be to Matt and Kelli and my grandparents living room will be filled with Girlfriends, wives and finances.....I will again be alone. For some reason I am being left behind. I want to be able to bring my someone special to Christmas......but he isn't in my life yet. grrrrr anyways. Tonight will be weird, but I am determined to get through it without crying. (much like I am now.)
December 24th-Normal tradition- Christmas with my brother, Typically Matt and I exchange gifts, give to my parents and watch a Christmas movie as a family. Then Church, and Nana and Papaw's house. Then back to my parents to go to sleep. This is a night full of traditions.
This year- Matt and Kelli will be in Fremont Ohio and I will be here with my parents. Who have some Meeting in the morning, (they won't tell me what it is about, I am afraid they maybe having some serious money problems, but of course they don't want me to know that, I pray it is not anything to bad because it is Christmas eve.....). I will be at home....probably trying to unpack......and Finish up my wrapping. Then we will go to Church and back to my grandparents.....This is were it is going to be hard, Matt will not be there......I know it sounds babyish but there were several Christmas that I was afraid Matt wouldn't be at(because of being sick) and now I have to face that he isn't there and it is because he is with a different family....He is my only brother and I really want him there. Anyways I am not sure how this night will go...of course I will try to not cry. I am not sure it will happen.

December 25th- normal-Wake up with Matt. SANTA came.....we open presents, call our Cousin's talk about our gifts, Have our BEAUTIFUL Christmas breakfast, then have the family over for a day of fun.....
This year....Wake up alone......Wait until Matt and Kelli get back-Hopefully before 4. I am determined not to go downstairs until they arrive home. I am not sure I can see our SANTA presents alone. So I guess I will play on Webkinz or DINNER DASH!!!! Once they get home we will open presents and then my mom's family is coming to do Christmas. The hardest part of this day will be waking up.

December 26th- Normal-RELAX
This year- REHEARSAL and REHEARSAL DINNER................I think that is a enough said. We have set up and all that stuff too.

December 27th-normal- Relax
This year- Hair at 8:00 a.m., Nails at 9:30, Make up at 10:30, Hotel at 11:00 getting dressed, Pictures at 1:00, Wedding at 3:00, Reception right after...

December 28th- Normal- Relax spend time with my aunt from Atlanta.
This year- Gift opening party at noon- and if we get done in time I am going to a Christmas party with some of my high school friends.

The madness continues with my parents 30th anniversary, Honeymoon airport drop off and pick up. NO new years eve plans, and house/lizard sitting.


Ohhh I totally forgot to mention....Yet another one of my friends is getting married. Andrea and Alex got engaged on Saturday. I am in the wedding..... 27 dresses HERE I COME!

Thanks for listening....

Keep reading!

Katie

23

Yesterday was my 23rd birthday..........
I think back to when I was in Junior high and even high school, I dreamed of getting married in May when I was 23. Well may is 6 months away......I am no where near a wedding. I am okay with that because I am not sure I am ready to be married! However I would love to have that magical feeling girls get when they are with someone they love. I know what you all are going to say, it will happen for you, just wait for it. Of course I know all those things. I REALLY HOPE IT WILL HAPPEN FOR ME!!!!!!! I know I need to be come comfortable with myself in order to let someone in, but I honestly feel like I need that person in my life in order to be 100% sure.
I feel like I am not good enough to be with someone. I know it may sound stupid bu I feel like I am not worth it, like for some reason I do not deserve to be in love.....DAMN I do deserve, I try to be a pretty good person, I don't think I am too terrible looking......who knows.....hopefully someday.

thanks for listening

ode to the baller

As I sit here and reflect on the events of this past weekend I begin to wonder....When did people start to use the word baller???
In my past the term had been used as a way to describe a strong basketball player who has wonderful talent, he was called a "baller"
Some time ago the term soon became popular in all sports that involved balls, the player was baller or ballin.....
I certainly could handle these usages and maybe have referred to someones sports skills as being baller.
However in more recent time the term is in place of cool. So instead of saying "WOW that is really cool!" one would say " Wow that is baller." I am not sure how this happened but I do feel that it was a major downfall in the human language. I feel that this has caused Americana's (white or black) to lose the very standards that this country was built on. AKA INTELLIGENCE.

I hereby forever vote that the use of the word "baller" be removed from the vocabulary of so many young people in America.
To help this cause I will no longer date any person who chooses to use the term "baller." I do hope that you will join me in creating a baller free nation.

Stuck in the past....

I just would like everyone to know that I can't handle reliving the past!!! I really hate it....we;; unless it is a happy time!!! I guess I need to grow up or something but things that happened most 5 years ago still haunt me and make me not a very happy person and then I say things that are not good. I always thought I was a mature 22 year old but today I realize I was lying to myself and I still have a lot of growing up to do.

ok well I am sleepy so I am going to bed

goodnight
Katie

Welcome to my Apartment

HEY!!!! How are you??? Welcome to my apartment!!!! I love it so far, I am just waiting for my roommate, Andrea, to move in so we can finish decorating!!!!! but I am really glad you came!!!


come on in have a seat....



Wanna Watch Tv???Oh are you hungry????
Want something to drink??? I have water, coke zero, and some beer.

Oh this is the bathroom.....no thats not a shower, it is storage, we just hid it with a shower curtain. Do you wanna see the upstairs?

This is the bathroom....it is pink and black....still not finished with the decorating!

Next is my room.......

Baxter, the fish, really loved his new home!

That is pretty much my apartment minus Andrea's room but she hasn't moved in so it is empty! lol well I hope you come back and visit really soon!!!!!!!

Have a great night!

BYE!!!!

~Katie~

Dear Housing

I am writing this letter to the housing office at EKU, I am very frustrated right now and I need to get it out, so I am doing that here!!!

Dear Housing,

Let me start off by thanking you for giving me the chance to meet some wonderful people. These people hold wonderful qualities such as being manipulative, back stabbing and terribly unprofessional. Its allowed me to see everything I shouldn't do through out my career. I also wanted to thank those people for making me feel small, and that my thoughts and opinions don't matter to them or the housing office. Mostly I would like to thank you and all those people who have called me out or embarrassed me in front of a group of my peers.

It takes a talented group of people to pawn off all of your work on people who's lives are already filling with programming requirements, 18 credit hours, homework, and duty nights and weekends and countless desk hours, which they do not get paid for. The past two years have taught me a lot and I have grown, none of which I can thank you for, because if anything housing has caused me to be bitchy, manipulative, negative and not care about anything.

Basically I just want to say, Thanks for nothing!!!!!



I am not really going to send this letter I just needed to get some frustration out.

Keep reading, i promise to update more often!!

~Katie~

not wanting to do homework

Well I am sitting here not wanting to do homework..... I have been thinking.....well its dead week and that means there are only two weeks left before I get to go home!!! I feel like I should be sad because its my last week of being an RA, tonight is my last Exect meeting for NRHH and after Tuesday I will be COMPLETELY done with that. I only have like 6 more classes, and 2 more assignments!!! Luckily next year is teaching and doing teachery things, NO MORE STUPID HOMEWORK, but I do know its not going to be an easy semester, because I will be teaching!! but I am soooo excited!!! lol
ok I need to go get ready!!!

Thanks
Keep Reading

~Katie~

teaching is where I belong

Some people question their choices in life. Luckily for me I am pretty excited about my upcoming career. Today was a big milestone in my teaching and in the next two week everything will unfold to determine if I can take the next big step. This is both nerve racking and exciting. I know I made the right decision when it comes to my major, and I think most people would agree with me. I do free that I am not going to be good at my job, i am not the smartest person and I never will be. I can't just read something once and know what it is and what it means. I have to look into and figure it out my own way, which creates a minor set back when you are in a room of 30 young kids wanting to know EVERYTHING. Anyways we will see how the next few weeks go, and will have my fingers crossed for next semester.

The hard thing about getting old is your career choice, but it also makes me look at different angles of my life.... By now I wanted to be in a relationship, one that could lead to marriage, but that just isn't happening. I mean I know I am not a scary hideous person, (well hell those girls have guys). I know what the problem is....its my weight...and believe me I WANT to change it, but eating is also my comfort and my stress reliever. I think if I could change my weight a lot of thing would get better......i know my self confidence would....i walk around wondering who is laughing at me and what they noticed that made them laugh, when in reality I am sure I wasn't even noticed. I just want someone a stranger or someone to walk up to me and just tell me I am beautiful, I would prefer a guy lol. I just wish I could feel the way my parents to, or my brother or a lot of my friends...I have never had a chance to have a real relationship. I have only kissed one guy and it was all in the course of one night....I am 22, COME ON I need some help. I am sure you are like shut up your not alone, but the point of my blog is for me to ramble, so that is what I am doing.

I think I am going to Stop, i don't want to get sappy....Basically I am ready for my life to take off.....

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~Katie~

A weekend with friends!!

Sometimes the life I live is one filled with stress and complication. I live surrounded by people I love and people I hate. Some are stuck living that life but I am lucky and I have my very own getaway. I take the time to travel to Louisville and see someone who not only lead through the most complicated semester of my personal life but someone who can make me smile at the drop of a dime and makes me feel like I am special. This would be Megan AKA MOO. I love her to death. I also get to spend these wonderful getaways with one of my best friends, Sarah AKA Toga.
This visit imparticular is very important to us because our time in college is coming to an end. We must embrace the time that we have together and we definitely don't take them for granted.
Enough with my babbling about two of the greatest friends I have now to fill you in on our events of the trip.
This evening we went shopping and to dinner, now we are getting ready to relax, hang out and watch a movie!!! WOHOO
Tomorrow is the real adventure. We are waking up early and going to eat at our Louisville favorite, LYNN paradise cafe. Then we are going to make our way to the ZOO!!!!! We are all very excited and can't wait to see our favorite animals. When we are done we will most likely get some food and head back to the APT and hang out!
Sunday will be the sad day. We will wake up and get some breakfast and then Sarah and I will travel back to Richmond.
That's when the confusion continues, I am going to be fighting to stay alive for the last 6 or so weeks of school.

That is all I have for now....

Keep reading!

~Katie~